fruit

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I want my ministry to be fruitful! Don't you? It's something I wish for and desire with every act of service I do in the house of God - and it would be hard to wish otherwise. I imagine there's not a single person serving God who doesn't want to see their ministry bear great fruit, in fact. So why is it, then, that some ministries are wildly fruitful, some less so, and some bear no fruit at all?

obedience

It's not a fluffy thing.

Lately I have often found myself trying to impress God through great sacrifice. Sweeping acts of servitude that reveal the extreme dedication of my faith. I know I have read in the Word that God delights in a self-sacrificing servant, and so the answer seemed easy. The more you sacrifice, the more you please the Lord.

study plan

i have a 1500 word criminal law assignment due on monday, which seems short, but places high scrutiny on the quality and detail of your research and revelations.

on top of that, i've got a hefty contracts assignment due on monday as well.

oh and a public law assignment, due on thursday.

not to mention the fact that greater union has been far less willing to give me shifts of late, greatly decreasing my cash flow.

add to that competing demands for the few hours that i am awake in the day, where compromise leaves me getting to bed unfairly late many nights of the week.

that and a few other factors has led to perpetual sickness, with my chronic rhinitis symptoms particularly flaring up these past months, and my body being in pain most hours of most days.

i'm also lamenting the recent death of certain friendships where we've just drifted apart, or don't get along anymore.


In short, I am surrounded by a mighty army of problems.
It's beyond my capacity to deal with alone.